“Notice the passing light. Warm velvet woodsmoke lifts me home. Slate clouds embrace sun rays, radiating lavender and chamomile, bergamot and sage. Goldfinches flitter through dusk as the tea leaves settle in my cup. This is here and nowhere, and internal, and everywhere. You are part of this.
Hunger drives me. I weave through the trees and consume what I need; usually those less fast, less fortunate than me. However they are just as desperate. I carry death in my feet and decay in my crop. I am life incarnate and the pinnacle of instinct. What am I?
Home is wherever you choose to land.
We coexist in a matrix of fear and wonder, myth and fact.
We hear the screams of parent, and the screams of children.
Death finds us both, and we spread it. This power complex exhausts us both; apex predators clashing in curiosity and survival.
Endless amber light welcomes me.
It comes from a thousand dying candles, singing to the Darjeeling sky.
You soar overhead, through the yellow.”
I wrote this poem as the final dialogue for my portfolio; the culmination of ideas; the bittersweet finale. I wanted to create something uplifting to end this term.
The narrative explores themes of home, constructed in the minds of both humans and birds of prey. It also acts as a conversation between the two; one of acceptance and mutual respect, rather than conflict and curiosity. Each entity observes each other, in all the qualities that make them so unique, and speak to each other. They acknowledge the myth and fear surrounding each other. Then, they leave each other be; this harmony with nature is something I wish for humanity to achieve one day. Themes of light run throughout the verse.
I chose to project a shining blue sky onto the backs of the actors in the performance. In this, kites fly through a dimming sun, rather than dark grey cloud. I aimed to create a vaguely melancholic, yet warm atmosphere, in order to match the aesthetic of the poem.
The soundtrack for the performance is ‘vide cor meum’, by Patrick Cassidy. The latin title translates to ‘see into my heart’. Whilst the title is apt enough for the theme of my performance, I chose this song as it adds to the deep, serene atmosphere I have created.
This piece has been influenced by my pieces of work that I have created throughout the term. From Verses 1-6, Sound piece and Journey to a higher world, I have drawn the themes of exploring and likeness and difference, and the relationship between human and bird.
I have extrapolated the successful elements from ‘Repentance‘; these being synchronised speech, and a narrative that hits close to home, adding a conversational element to the work.
Finally, this piece embraces both objectivity and subjectivity in the viewing of birds of prey. This was catalysed in the beginning by Erasure of goshawk.